“You died because you caused yourself to die!”  said this woman to me as I finished my lecture.  “How do you figure?” I asked.  She then went on to tell me if I would only have thought positively, then I wouldn’t have brought all the negativity to my situation.

Now this isn’t the first time I have been told this.  One doctor, on my case, told me all of my premonitions and intuitive thoughts prior to delivering our second child were a “self-fulfilling prophecy.”

“A self–fulfilling prophecy is a prediction that directly or indirectly causes itself to become true, by the very terms of the prophecy itself, due to positive feedback between belief and behavior.”

When searching for examples of “self-fulfilling prophecies” I get a bunch of myths, fables and fantasy.  But herein lies the problem for me, our story was very real.

I had felt guilty for close to a year after my amniotic fluid embolism that I did this to myself.  That I put myself in harm’s way and almost destroyed my family.  Coupled with the fact no one could tell me scientifically how my intuition was so strong.  So, the only thing I focused on, was I did this to myself.

When pressing the doctor if he really believed I manifested my clinical death, he responded with “of course not, we just can’t think of any other reason you would have known all of the information ahead of time.”  Theories. All just theories. No facts to support those theories. And what he had done to exacerbate the guilt I felt by just throwing that theory out into the universe, well, I wish I had the cojones then to say what you think I would have said.

But he did leave a lasting impression in my mind and the need to find out if one believes in “manifesting your destiny,” can one then manifest their demise?

I have done a lot of research on the subject and spoken to smarter people than myself to try and come up with a steadfast “rule” to apply to differentiating between “manifestation” and “Intuition.”

Unfortunately, I cannot come up with a general rule.  People have theories. People are unique in their experiences.  But I can tell you I have concluded from my own experience, my INTUITION told me I would die. I did something about it by letting others know and I helped save my own life. I did not manifest it.

How much do you believe in manifesting your destiny?  And can you define your intuition as just that, intuition. Telling you something is off or dead on.  Or, does it depend on manifestation to come true?